Hello guys! I am an 18 year old student currently going through hell. Not only have I spent the last (almost) two decades within education but I am now going on to even higher education to continue to learn in hope that one day I'll finally have the perfect job and life that I've always wanted... why am I doing this to myself?
To live in this day and age, you have to have the perfect life, the perfect body, the perfect face and be able to juggle learning to drive, having a job or looking for one and having an education and social life. It's never ending! It's constant pressure and a never ending list of ways to become this societies idea of 'perfect'. It doesn't help that we get a constant reminder every day on social networking sites such as twitter, Instagram or Tumblr that we aren't perfect and we probably never will be. It's not as if I didn't already know that but thank you for that reminder.
Imagine being the only individual within your family that is about to go to university? It sounds great, you're finally making something of yourself! But, it isn't. Its more pressure. I'm constantly asking myself, "what if I don't get in?" "Will my family be disappointed in me if I decide to be a drop out half way through?" "Is this life really for me?" I know that I shouldn't be thinking like that and if my parent's knew I thought this then they'd reassure me that I was being silly but I can't help it.
My life is not perfect at all and I am aware of that and it will never be perfect no matter what the pressure does to me. I will constantly be hoping that maybe one day I'll wake up and I'll look like Kendall Jenner or have the life style Blair Waldorf has. Can I have my own Chuck Bass? Oh a girl can dream.
Whilst I was thinking about a name for this blog, I was sat staring around at all the work I have to do and all the revision and I just did a big sigh about it all and was like that's it, that's what I'll call it. One big sigh is how I would explain my life right now. Basically, I am writing this blog so that I can rant about my life and the stress and anxiety I have every day because of it and the pressure within the world today.
I will continue going about my day to day life being un-perfect but that's alright because as Hannah Montana once said "No-bodies perfect."
Ciao for now...
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