Goodbye May...

Hello guys...

the end of May has quickly approached us which means June and Summer is just around the corner. We can all dream about this Summer being like something of the film grease and we all find the love of our life whilst on holiday in another country (or on your doorstep if you aren't going on holiday) but unfortunately I'm approaching my 18th year of Summer and I still haven't experienced it.
Personally, I prefer Winter to Summer and because I live in the UK I have a better chance of catching a tan sitting next to the radiator than being outside in the "sun". One of the major issues that comes with Summer is feeling and looking good at all times. Everyone starts to tan and have their bodies on show which for some people (like me) is a major issue. Luckily in this day and age more and more people feel a lot more comfortable wearing a swim suit and don't feel the need to only wear a bikini to impress the people you surround yourself with. No matter how your summer turns out just make sure that you are comfortable and enjoying yourself, if you don't want to be out in the Sun or outside at all then you don't have too, this is your life and no one wants to remember their break as pressurized and not enjoyable.
We all need a break from our busy lives and the Summer holidays are most definitely the best time to do that. This Summer I plan on doing a lot of adventurous events and not keeping myself cooped up in the house hiding because Netflix and my computer screen. One thing that I definitely want to do before I move in September is get a tattoo. I don't know what of but I just know I want one and whether or not I pluck up the courage to do that is another question though. We're already 6 months (almost) into this year and so far I have done nothing but stress, cry, complain and revise and now that this is almost over and I can finally have a break from all of this and I plan on taking complete advantage of that!

I'd like to hear from you:

What do you plan on doing this Summer? Would you like a "May Favorites" next week? Let me know what you think...

Ciao for now...

Insecurities and Self Image...

Hello guys...

I have been thinking about how to actually write this post because everyone has insecurities, flaws and imperfections that you can never get over no matter what. I could count on one hand the amount of features I actually like about myself and I find that quite upsetting because no matter what I do I'm always going to have them. I go through a lot of bad days or bad weeks were I simply won't leave the house because I don't want to see anyone or anyone to see me.

Posting a photograph of myself on instagram, Facebook, twitter or tumblr may come across as if I find myself "acceptable" because I am sharing the way I look with others but what people don't is just how long it has took me to get the courage to actually post that photograph in case someone is criticising the way my nose is or the size of my lips, its an ongoing cycle. Receiving likes and comments about you being 'beautiful' or 'pretty' never helps either, I never remember the good compliments from people, only the worst. I could sit now and write down all of the past nasty comments I have received from people for as far back as I can remember but I won't do that because that will only make me upset. No-one thinks about other people's insecurities or the way that they see them selves whilst they are talking to them. I want to be someone's idea of perfection but how can you become that when you don't even see yourself as it?

Recently I have been battling a lot with my weight, constantly dieting, no matter what I eat I am constantly thinking to myself, you shouldn't eat them, you'll regret that, how many calories does that have in? I am constantly shaming myself for everything I do and eat and it's because I'm never going to be happy with myself. I look at other people's photographs and I'm like "I wish I looked like her, I wish I could eat as much as she does and not gain any weight" but unfortunately that isn't me.

I am 18 years old and for as long as I can remember I have despised my flaws, as much as I hate my insecurities, I will not let them defeat me, hopefully one day I will actually appreciate them even a little bit because without them, I wouldn't be myself. One of my biggest fears in life is that when I have children, they are over run with their insecurities, I know how it feels to be so upset with the way I look and I'd hate for it to happen to my own child. I can't change the way they feel about themselves or help anyone but I can help them by letting them know that they aren't alone with it, we all have them but without them we wouldn't be ourselves.

How do you cope with your insecurities? Does any of this sound familiar to you? I am long way from ever feeling good about myself and my insecurities but I will get there. I know I will. I will not let them destroy me

Ciao for now...

Approaching Exams...

Hello guys...

Unfortunately what I have to say will not help exams go away because let's face it, we all have to do them at some point within our life. But one thing I can hopefully advice you on is how to deal with the exams that you are taking, so far I have taken SAT's, GCSE's and one year of A-Levels and I'm currently about to finish my final year of A-Levels. I find exams stressful and they're just something that I would happily like to remove from my life all together but I'm not that lucky. So I have decided to put together a few steps on ways to approach exams:

• Have a fearless attitude- Don't come across as too cocky but have a positive attitude throughout all of your exams. If you can't believe in yourself, no one can.

•  Revise!- Procrastinating is never the best solution and if you don't put the hard work in, you won't get the results you are hoping for, unfortunately it doesn't work like that. Spend at least an hour a day revising the subject that you have an exam for- DON'T OVER REVISE!

• Buy good stationary- Knowing that when you have your exam that you have a brand new pen to use or stationary to use is the best feeling (just make sure it works first) 

• DO NOT THINK ABOUT THE OUTCOME- If you go into an exam and think about how bad the exam is and how bad you know you're going to fail, you're only setting yourself up for disaster. Take a deep breath and think, you know you're wrong and you probably will pass that exam without a doubt!

• Be chilled but not too chilled- Don't think that this means that you should just not try when it comes to your exams because let's face it, you have no one to blame but yourself if you don't pass. (Sorry but it's the truth)

• Reward yourself- After every exam that you do, reward yourself! Finally all of your hard work has payed off and that exam is over with, so go out and have fun! Don't think about all of those other 1800 exams you have left, live in the now!

These are the steps that I try to take when I come to exam time, they may not work for everyone but hopefully they will help you in some ways! I wish you all luck with exams or finishing this year of education! You can do it, stay strong!

Ciao for now...

Dealing With Stress...

Hello guys...

Whilst I was on my driving lesson this week my my driving instructor asked me if I was stressed and I was wondering how he got the idea that I was and then I started to think about the lesson. I was rushing things and cutting corners whilst driving and not being the type of driver that I usually am and instead of taking the stress out on myself or other people, I found that I was taking it out on the car and the road which isn't the best thing to do so here are my best ways of dealing with stress:

• CRY- everyone needs a good cry once in a while and I always find that it helps the most, letting out all of the anger and stress that you have building up is such a great feeling.

• READ- not a lot of people find reading a book interesting so reading a magazine or just scrolling through social networking sites may help too, it will make you forget why you were stressed.

• SLEEP- nap. take naps whenever you want to, go sleep, sleep makes you feel better and un-stressed 

• WALK- go outside and get some fresh air, take your dogs out for a walk or whatever animal you like and just focus on the positive

• EAT- eat all of the foods that you like at once, eat it whilst walking (calories don't count then)

• PAMPER- buy yourself something new, if it will make you feel better right now then buy it. I dare you.

• TALK- I find that talking about the issue really helps me to relieve the stress just a little bit, shout instead of talking if you want, it all helps!

• DON'T OVER THINK AS MUCH- I am one of those people that over think everything which makes me even more stressed so trying not to over think at all will be hard, just try to cut it down a little
• WRITE- writing this post alone has helped me to not be as stressed so why not buy a book or get a random piece of paper and write down your thoughts, vent to the paper!!!

With exams coming up we're all very stressed so hopefully these tips will help you and myself. Good Luck with any exams that you do have, you can do it!

 Ciao for now...

The Pressure To Be Perfect...

Be the perfect student. Have the perfect life. Be the perfect human. It's all tiring.

Hello guys! I am an 18 year old student currently going through hell. Not only have I spent the last (almost) two decades within education but I am now going on to even higher education to continue to learn in hope that one day I'll finally have the perfect job and life that I've always wanted... why am I doing this to myself?
To live in this day and age, you have to have the perfect life, the perfect body, the perfect face and be able to juggle learning to drive, having a job or looking for one and having an education and social life. It's never ending! It's constant pressure and a never ending list of ways to become this societies idea of 'perfect'. It doesn't help that we get a constant reminder every day on social networking sites such as twitter, Instagram or Tumblr that we aren't perfect and we probably never will be. It's not as if I didn't already know that but thank you for that reminder.
Imagine being the only individual within your family that is about to go to university? It sounds great, you're finally making something of yourself! But, it isn't. Its more pressure. I'm constantly asking myself, "what if I don't get in?" "Will my family be disappointed in me if I decide to be a drop out half way through?" "Is this life really for me?" I know that I shouldn't be thinking like that and if my parent's knew I thought this then they'd reassure me that I was being silly but I can't help it.
My life is not perfect at all and I am aware of that and it will never be perfect no matter what the pressure does to me. I will constantly be hoping that maybe one day I'll wake up and I'll look like Kendall Jenner or have the life style Blair Waldorf has. Can I have my own Chuck Bass? Oh a girl can dream.

Whilst I was thinking about a name for this blog, I was sat staring around at all the work I have to do and all the revision and I just did a big sigh about it all and was like that's it, that's what I'll call it. One big sigh is how I would explain my life right now. Basically, I am writing this blog so that I can rant about my life and the stress and anxiety I have every day because of it and the pressure within the world today.
I will continue going about my day to day life being un-perfect but that's alright because as Hannah Montana once said "No-bodies perfect."

Ciao for now...