In Need Of A Break...

Hello guys...

Once again, I am lacking with my blog posts, uni and life is just completely taking over recently. Hectic is a word that I would definitely describe my life at the minute.

Since the start of this year, everything that has happened in my life has just been one big blur. For instance its already approaching the end of October, I am no longer a college student, I finally got a job and I'm about ready to sit my driving test. Life has definitely been very hard and challenging this year to say the least.
When I first started this blog, I was having serious trouble with my anxiety and controlling it but I have found that since starting, my anxiety is a lot better, I was progressing at a great speed and I am so thankful for that. Unfortunately, since around June, I have felt that my whole life is just crashing down, I've had nothing but a hard time and spending most of my time doing Uni work to take my mind off just how terrible things are at the minute.

I've never been so in need of a break, a relaxing time away. A week off would be really good right now, with no responsibilities or social media. But I'm not that lucky, I can just dream about it instead. Being able to even sit down and write out this blog post is a way to take my mind off everything and just sit and relax whilst I type away. It's sort of like talking to myself but I'm finding it so calming to do it. My problem is that the one thing that is making me relaxed, is something that I don't have too much time to do these day due to the pile of work I get EVERYDAY. But I'm not giving up on blogging just yet.

This blogpost was quite useless but I felt that I needed to write something just so I could feel somewhat calm and relaxed for at least 10 minutes of my day. I feel like I have been able to breathe for a second.

Ciao for now...

Getting Over My Fears?...

Hello guys...

It's been a while I know, I've had a lot to do recently and I've been forgetting to do things such as blog now that I'm such a busy person (no lie). But now that I actually have the time to do it, I have decided to make a post about how I've sort of got over my fears recently.

Since starting uni and living off my student loan, I realised it was time to find a well paid job or at least apply for more which is what I did. So last Monday I finally received word for an interview on Wednesday at a local pub, interviews are one thing that scares me a lot due to anxiety and over-thinking before even attending the interview. But, this time I decided I wasn't going to google interview scenarios and worry about the interview and what sort of questions I might've been asked because when I do that, it panics me and I want to be the best I can be.

So instead, I decided I was going to definitely 110% go for this job. I was going to put my all into it and hope for the best. I bought myself a new dress ready for the interview to take my mind off the situation. I received the phone call at around 6:00pm on that Monday night but I didn't tell my parents until the next day, I told two people about this interview. I found that by only telling few people, I didn't have the pressure of doing perfect and if I didn't get the job, I hadn't let too many people down.

Once it got to Wednesday, I was very relaxed which actually worried me, I started to wonder why I wasn't nervous about the interview but I didn't overthink it. With my new dress and my relaxed attitude, I went for the interview. Of course I became a little bit nervous when the woman was talking to me but then throughout it I was wondering why I'd never had the courage to do this before, the atmosphere was so peaceful and relaxed. She took me to a corner in the pub and asked me questions as she wrote my answers, nothing was pushed or rushed and she didn't force me. Once the interview was over the woman joked on about how she finally had a break now and I felt so happy about it.

I'd finally put my fear of interviews aside and went for it, and two days later, she called and asked me back for job trial! Which I have this Friday.

From this situation, it made me realise that overthinking isn't what I need to do, it only makes the process worse than it actually is.

Ciao for now...